Nostalgia

Fluttering thoughts collide against the inertia of the sea wall

Eons of time passing through my mind
I cannot close my eyes, lest I may sleep over the impasse in time
Where shall I stop to discover the thought of your presence

A spirit getting up, moving away, from all that ever have been and will be
What would have happened without you?
What would I think about lying down here, without you?
Will the time slow down like this, without you?
Would I hear the sound of nocturnals and the tiny mosquitoes, without you?
Would I feel this nostalgia, without you?

I cannot ponder over the drifting away
We met long ago, we shall meet again after a long time
Wherever you are, the speck of a thought of you comes
Every once in a while
And reminds me that life remains

Pages of the book turned over
A new chapter opens up every once in a while
When can I forget the boggling past

I will befriend your spirit in your absence
I will engulf myself with your words without you speaking
I will tease you, smile at you, laugh at you without you moving
You are present in my mind, as an unwavering thought
There is no where else I can find you, but in my mind
For the time doesn't stop neither for you nor for me

Prisoner

Endless steel surround me

When I wake up I see no sun
The walls are so thick
Even death cannot penetrate it

There are no stars in the sky
I hear no bird chirps
The air is so still I can hear the sound of silence
No sight of a living soul
Not even tiny mosquitoes come to this deserted place

All my dreams are inside a prison
I am a prisoner in all my dreams
And in dreams inside dreams
I dream about a world inside a prison
There is no one else in my dreams

My legs are tied, I cannot walk
My hands are cuffed, I cannot hold
My eyes are blinded, I cannot see
My mind is constricted. I cannot think
I am not allowed to walk, hold, see
I am not allowed to think

The world doesn't move around me
I stay idle for an endless time
Eternal seasons march without a change around me
Alive or dead, there is no difference

My mind can never ask questions
It can never doubt anything
It can never explain anything
The mind is stilled and frozen
The mind is in a prison.